Update

I thought i would give an update on my situation for anyone that has been reading my blog. Well first of all never would i have even imagined how hard it would be to get help for an addiction. There are only 2 places in Montreal that do a medical detox. The best one is at St Luc hospital and the second one is at a place called Le Cran. All rehabs in Montreal will not take me in unless I do a medical detox first. Now to get into st Luc if you don't have a doctor's referral the waiting list is about 2 to 3 months wait. If you have a doctor's referral the waiting time is about 2 weeks. So I thought ok no problem i will go see my Dr and she will give me a referral saying i need medical detox. Not so simple mu friends. My Dr refused saying it was not her responsibility after I pretty much was begging for help while cruing. I was really really shocked. That really discouraged me. I then started making calls everywhere even ibm NB and the waiting lists in other provinces are even longer. Then one night I had the idea to start calling all medical clinics in Montreal until i found one with a Dr willing to help. I can kind of understand how reluctant they are about giving me a refill of dilaudid to keep me going until i get into detox yet they all tell me do not stop this drug on your own...keep using its too dangerous. Kind of a catch 22. So on my I think 25 th call i found a clinic with a Dr willing to help me and give me a referral. He did not prescribe me dilaudid but he prescribed me Clonodine which is a drug to to help with the SEVERE withdrawls from getting off dilaudid. He told me to take 3 a day and every 2 or 3 days take one less dilaudid. I started yesterday with one dilaudid less and i was amazed at the results. The Clonodine makes me groggy and very very tired. And the withdrawal symptoms from dilaudid so far are really not too bad. I feel like I have a huge cold with aches and pains and very tired as i mentionned but that is it so far...so I plan on going as low as i can until i get into st Luc. I am really really surprised at how difficult it is to get help and how hard it is to find a Dr that will sign a simple referral saying my patient needs a medical detox. I van not imagine how hard it must be for a homeless drug addict person to get help! So that is my update and again thank you to all the people in my life helping me supporting me and not giving up on me. Thank you for reading me :)