Bordeline Personality Disorder

I am doing this blog in the hopes of helping people with "BPD" and to help family and friends and those who do not have BPD to perhaps understand us better. Also to learn from others at the same time. I am 36 years old and I was diagnosed with BPD about 2 years ago. I am fortunate enough to be in a fantastic treatment center for 2 years and i know that depending on where people live, many places do not have treatment at all. I will be sharing VERY PERSONAL information because i think it is important people understand and in the hopes that my story can help someone who has felt the same or went through similar experiences, hopefully they can relate. I would like to share experiences and things I have learned in therapy and hear people's stories and experiences. Please do not self diagnose yourself if you find you have many of the symptoms of Borderline personality disorder. I also am not a doctor or therapist so everything I post is from my own experiences and what I have learned so far about BPD. Everyone is welcome to share their stories, offer tips and such but if anyone is disrespectful I will remove your posts. I hope this will be a way to inform and help people including myself. Thank you

Wednesday 31 August 2011

OH i wanted to add, I and most bpd people are extremely sensitive and sometimes on certain days, a friend or someone will say a comment that no one would ever think anything of....but i on some days will receive a text, a phone call or someone will say something, or someone will not reply to a text or an email..ect and if its a bad day, i can spend hours thinking i must have done something wrong, this person must not like me ect ect ect....i live in my head and am always always analysing everything to death. And 99% of the time i am of course wrong, but this may explain to people that we can be sooooooo sensitive sometimes a simple thing like not returning a phone call, a text, an email...that can set us off to think we are a bad person or we did something wrong and on and on and on....from my experience and from hearing other people talk in my group sessions, most of us are like that. And then we overreact and the poor person at the other end whom did absolutly nothing wrong is at a lost. It is never with bad intentions, sometimes we just need a small explanation or reassurance and poof we are fine...a bit of patience with us goes a very long way :o)

4 comments:

  1. Nacadie:
    this must have been not only extremely hard to write, but cathardic as well. You should be proud of yourself for putting this out there. Although hard for those with BPD to understand what it is they are going through, it is unfortunately harder for friends and family. I have tried to educate those around me for years, but I am only a bystander and not a sufferer of the disorder. I think that more than those that have BPD will appreciate your goals here. Those that love those sufferers will appreciate what you are trying to do. As a family member to now two of you, I want you ( both of you) to know that although we don't understand what you are going through, and will never fully understand it, we LOVE you no matter what. Unconditionally.

    Lisa

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  2. Thank you Lisa. I love you guys too xxx

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  3. This took a lot of courage. I am proud of you for all your hard work.

    xox
    Paule

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  4. I appreciate Lisa B's comment for you Nac. It's nice to know that some people do try and understand. I know it's hard for my friends and family to. I have to be honest though, most just see me as a drama queen or self-centered. As per your post, I do the exact same thing. Facebook has gotten me into more trouble, just by reading a post. I have got told off a lot actually even in this past week by people. People who KNOW I have it, they just don't bother understanding or trying to. So, really Lisa you have no idea how much it means to people when someone puts forth an effort to try and understand. I try and control it, I'm better than I was. I do still get people talking how paranoid I am. You know what hurts the most is that they say then that they love me but, they don't ever want me in their life anymore. Well, obviously you don't love me. These again are family members. They only speak to me if I did something wrong. If that is love then count me out. Thank you again Nac for sharing! :)

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